...so sad

Telling people you love them is not an assurance at all that they will love you back. Or it’s just that, their way is not your way. It hurts, but sometimes, I hope people can read minds. So they will know how they will truly make me happy. So awful, even the closest people around me don’t even know how. So sad that it makes me feel like I am all alone in this world.

lately, I've been feeling....

...worried, afraid, and a bit incomplete…

…worried about me, relationships, work…and life in general…worried that I am not being good enough and not doing that much that it makes me feel afraid that everything I have now will be lost in just a snap and that those people I love will soon leave me for being so…

...these feelings again!. yes, AGAIN!...these stupid feelings just keep coming back…for some reasons even me can't figure out why…It has been five years since I joined SFC, a community where we are constantly being reminded that we need not to worry coz’ God is always there for us…not to be so bothered coz’ He is manning our lives and directing it to where it should be…not to be afraid coz’ He will always be there to be our strength…five years and yet, here I am…still being haunted with these emotions…guilty for feeling so because I know that worrying is an insult to Him…Well, it’s not that I don’t trust Him…and it’s not that I am doubting His presence…I guess it is Him working on me as well…reminding me that I need Him more now...well, I do...
I will be needing no one but Him in this struggle...

“There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever”

What Christine Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Nine words women use...

..found this from my inbox..just thought of re-posting it here...a public service for the men who will be reading this...hehe

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are
right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something,
and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing
usually end in fine.

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement
often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an
idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing
with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women
can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard
before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say
you're welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying _ _ _ _ yOu!

9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but
is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's
wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

Every Love Story Is A Fairy Tale

"Cinderella walked with one glass slipper
alone. Sleeping Beauty let a whole
lifetime pass. Belle fell in love with a
hideous beast. Pocahontas risked her
life for a feast. Jasmine could have had
anyone but instead chose a poor boy.
Ariel walked for the first time on land.
All for love.

It is all about facing your biggest
fears and not letting the moment pass
you by. Live your own fairy tale, create
your own ending."

That Missing Piece

This came late. But better than not posting this at all..hehe

Last 1119, there was this bizarre feeling. I wasn’t that overwhelmingly happy but I wasn’t that dreadfully sad though. It was weird in fact. Later on, I realized why…there was this missing piece.

It is just amazing how a one special person can complete that puzzle of happiness we have wanted while others cannot no matter how much effort they do. ♥♥♥

...blessing called friends

This one goes to my friends who made my birthday really special. 1.) Saturday, Nov 17- Pizza-Get-Together with the “Tropang VB” The “VB group” (as to what VB stands for…well, only us knows…Mae said you can join if you want to...hehe), my new-found-friends from SFC East a Dance Min, prepared a Pizza get together for me and Raziel at B-loi’s house. Special thanks to Mae for her GC and for B-loi too for accommodating us. Thanks too to Cris and Jasper for being there to add some fun. All of you were so thoughtful. I really never imagined you guys will exert this effort for us, especially for me since that we have only known each other during the cheer dance competition. Mae could have just used the GC to treat her family instead and B-loi could have just chosen to sleep after a long day at work and get some rest instead. My most appreciated part was the “honoring” part, a tradition we do in the community every time we celebrate birthdays. It is pleasing to know that they appreciate me. He he. 2.) Sunday, November 18 - Household/ Chapter Gathering at my place And, should I forget my chapter mates? Thanks to all of you who were present here last Sunday. The supposedly lower household for us sisters turned out to be a chapter gathering/birthday party for me. Let me begin by honoring the brothers first because, honestly, this time, I really appreciated them. Who would have thought that they will exert some effort to buy a present for me? Well, I mean, separately from the sisters because what they usually do before was just to share with whatever the group has for me. Thanks a lot bros! It was really nice, so nice that I really had this feeling that not you but someone from the girls bought it for you. Well, I later learned that it was Ryan’s GG who opted to choose it. No wonder, it was a good pick. He he! Thanks to her too. And, one more thing which I appreciated they did was that they were the ones who did the kitchen chores while the girls were in the living room watching TV and chatting. To mention, Kuya Nat and Wilson prepared the lettuce for the burgers, Wilson cooked the burger patties too, Ryan and Albert bought some drinks at a nearby store, Paul cooked the fries, and Anthony prepared the drinks, and, let us not forget Bok, the one in-charged with taste-testing and entertaining the sisters. Ha-ha! I can remember my sister telling Ate Deth, our chapter head, “spoiled pala ng mga boys ang mga girls sa chapter”. Ha ha! Are we really? My sister friends might get jealous if I do not say anything about them. He he! Definitely, I honor them too. It was them who planned this. Girls are really the more creative ones when it comes to gimmicks and surprises. He he! They initiated the theme for the party where everyone was supposed to wear anything green because, as they all know, green is my favorite color. Well, some were “pasaway”, but majority came wearing green caps, shirt, slippers, etc., anything with a touch of color green. And, almost each of them had their surprises for me too. To all those sisters who came, Ate Deth, Ate Lannie, Klea, Ryzel, Johanna, Raziel, Izzie, Karla, Cathy, Matet, Rica…Thank you so much sister friends! Just one of my blessings for this year…My blessings called friends…Thank you so much!!!